no idea what birth has to do with it, unless you're just talking about blood bonds
do you care about anything?
[ because it's always been about love for seth on a basic level. love for ray, richie, vanessa — kate now, he supposes, on smaller scale. maybe that's why he feels wrecked without them. but what fills that void? do aliens just not have that problem?
[ It's what he volunteered for. Why he's in this ugly mess of a business in the first place. And he cares about his crew, in his own way. It's just. . . ]
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
I volunteered to join the CDC so that my people don't end up getting used as weapons by other aliens. I care about that a lot.
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DAY 19 | FILTERED
i made devan.isha@cdc.org my back up. she's a goddamn star
we're playing the long con, so don't expect shit to hit the fan for a while
[ aka don't expect to hear from him while they're doing recon. ]
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I love you already. You're never leaving my team.
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FROM: gecko.seth@cdc.org
yeah yeah wait until i have the goddamn ring before you say your vows
i'm not on your team yet, red
[ he's still babysitting on blue. first supplies, now squishies. ]
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FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Marriage metaphors?
I hope you didn't break anything on Blue yet.
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you're the one who brought up love, man
and i'm not gonna screw up babysitting.
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I've heard that before. I laughed for a long time.
Isn't love a good thing?
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do you do this suddenly personal shit on purpose or what
"oh speaking of love, tell me about your feelings, seth"
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"Love," as I understand it by human explanations, translates as "utter annihilation of one's identity" to me.
Which is pretty personal, I'll admit.
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FROM: gecko.seth@cdc.org
damn straight it's personal
but it only destroys your identity when it leaves you
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Love is a kind of bond, right? Why would you break that?
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hell if i know
i'm never the one who does the breaking
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FROM: dagger@cdc.org
I'm sorry. It must be hard to deal with.
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FROM: gecko.seth@cdc.org
life is always hard, but thanks
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next time, let's stick to your feelings
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Okay. I like my feelings. I like talking about myself too.
Ask me.
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okay then, dagger, tell me: do you have any love bonds? intact or broken?
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None yet. I hope to never have one. Like I said, love is total annihilation of identity as far as my species is concerned.
It's a wonderful idea to entertain, but it's terrible practice.
Humans just give birth.
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no idea what birth has to do with it, unless you're just talking about blood bonds
do you care about anything?
[ because it's always been about love for seth on a basic level. love for ray, richie, vanessa — kate now, he supposes, on smaller scale. maybe that's why he feels wrecked without them. but what fills that void? do aliens just not have that problem?
must be nice. ]
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I care about my home.
[ It's what he volunteered for. Why he's in this ugly mess of a business in the first place. And he cares about his crew, in his own way. It's just. . . ]
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
I volunteered to join the CDC so that my people don't end up getting used as weapons by other aliens. I care about that a lot.
You miss home?
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sounds like love to me. i respect that
FROM: gecko.seth@cdc.org
i miss my family and my freedom. everything is else is collateral.
[ a burned house, shitty motels, even earth itself — none of that's home to him, not really. ]
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I feel you. How much family do you have?
No need to tell me if you don't want to, I'm just curious.
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got a brother, an ex-wife, and a sort of kid sister but we're not blood related.
you?
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I have my crew. I know them better than I know home, these days.
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yeah, it's funny how things change
FROM: gecko.seth@cdc.org
i know you said you don't eat, but do you drink?
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Things always change. And no, I don't. No digestive tract, no real need for a mouth.