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FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Not really, but it's supposed to help people feel better. Therapy is weird.
If it's got nothing to do with you and him as a unit, why even bother asking about it? It doesn't affect you, but you're still concerned. Why?
Not really, but it's supposed to help people feel better. Therapy is weird.
If it's got nothing to do with you and him as a unit, why even bother asking about it? It doesn't affect you, but you're still concerned. Why?
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
Fate is? There's nothing more damning and helpless as the concept of fate. What therapists have you been to?
[ a pause between messages here ]
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
I'm not asking anything. Don't worry about it.
Fate is? There's nothing more damning and helpless as the concept of fate. What therapists have you been to?
[ a pause between messages here ]
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
I'm not asking anything. Don't worry about it.
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
None. Talking about feelings is problematic for Keluuvi.
Caring is tiring, isn't it.
None. Talking about feelings is problematic for Keluuvi.
Caring is tiring, isn't it.
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Because feelings as you humans explain it is aberrant behavior for Keluuvi. Who I am is who my predecessors were, and their predecessors, and their predecessors.
We're literal parts of someone else, tied together, and grown. To feel something individual is to deny what I was, who they were, what we are.
We feel as one. "My" feelings shouldn't exist in the first place.
Because feelings as you humans explain it is aberrant behavior for Keluuvi. Who I am is who my predecessors were, and their predecessors, and their predecessors.
We're literal parts of someone else, tied together, and grown. To feel something individual is to deny what I was, who they were, what we are.
We feel as one. "My" feelings shouldn't exist in the first place.
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
You'd think that. Humans don't understand half their feelings most of the time. It's easy for Keluuvi to know what we feel, because we know where we come from, and what we've felt before.
[ And for the first time, Dagger takes a pause before replying. ]
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
I was cut off. When I volunteered. For all intents and purposes, I can't really go home.
They didn't ban me or anything. It's kind of impossible to, since "part of the whole" and whole, they'd be banning themselves too.
But if I went home, I wouldn't be welcome.
You'd think that. Humans don't understand half their feelings most of the time. It's easy for Keluuvi to know what we feel, because we know where we come from, and what we've felt before.
[ And for the first time, Dagger takes a pause before replying. ]
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
I was cut off. When I volunteered. For all intents and purposes, I can't really go home.
They didn't ban me or anything. It's kind of impossible to, since "part of the whole" and whole, they'd be banning themselves too.
But if I went home, I wouldn't be welcome.
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
I made that call on my own. Independent thought.
It's a fair trade.
I made that call on my own. Independent thought.
It's a fair trade.
[ It looks like he's leaking. Which is an inelegant way to describe it when the word itself implies the kind of spill Warriorhead would be all too eager to wash his hands of.
This is something else.Dagger's body tightens, expands- as though he's unable to control it. Maybe he isn't. There's something to be said for watching a being unravel, and yield. To watch him become the air. They'll be at their limit soon.
The coil around his chest begins to lengthen and compress- a biological response to the presence of danger. The bone pieces itself together like a replacement suit of armor, covering his vital organs in the same breath that it reinforces the sheath around his hands. If he pushes much further, there won't be much point in the reaction. His fingers trace the cracks- a canyon of his own to explore at his leisure. ]
What does it feel like?
This is something else.Dagger's body tightens, expands- as though he's unable to control it. Maybe he isn't. There's something to be said for watching a being unravel, and yield. To watch him become the air. They'll be at their limit soon.
The coil around his chest begins to lengthen and compress- a biological response to the presence of danger. The bone pieces itself together like a replacement suit of armor, covering his vital organs in the same breath that it reinforces the sheath around his hands. If he pushes much further, there won't be much point in the reaction. His fingers trace the cracks- a canyon of his own to explore at his leisure. ]
What does it feel like?
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
It's martyrdom.
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
What does that make you now, if you're cut off from the whole. Every moment here would be independent thought on your part, wouldn't it?
It's martyrdom.
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
What does that make you now, if you're cut off from the whole. Every moment here would be independent thought on your part, wouldn't it?
Edited (ugh words) 2014-07-20 20:03 (UTC)
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
What was the story?
Do you even actually want me to hurt you. . .?
What was the story?
Do you even actually want me to hurt you. . .?
FROM: kigai.yuuto@cdc.org
1 - That Yuri resembled one of my enemies. If that enemy is here, the precious person that I am guarding will be in danger.
Naturally, I acted out on rash emotions. :)
2 - If you think that would make things more believable!
I did fail you. And I would like to limit the negative feelings that people have toward the CDC instructors.
1 - That Yuri resembled one of my enemies. If that enemy is here, the precious person that I am guarding will be in danger.
Naturally, I acted out on rash emotions. :)
2 - If you think that would make things more believable!
I did fail you. And I would like to limit the negative feelings that people have toward the CDC instructors.
FROM: strider.dirk@cdc.org
Fighting November 11 about now and here: [Insert location on the outskirts of camp far away from people or something.
That stasis crap really derailed his plans...]
[ooc: log is here~.]
Fighting November 11 about now and here: [Insert location on the outskirts of camp far away from people or something.
That stasis crap really derailed his plans...]
[ooc: log is here~.]
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
So. Going to another planet, rescuing recruits, gonna guess this means rover assignments might get switched up again. Any chance someone could put in a request?
So. Going to another planet, rescuing recruits, gonna guess this means rover assignments might get switched up again. Any chance someone could put in a request?
FROM: barnes.james@cdc.org
Reporting in.
[Hi senpai, he's back. Just so you know.]
Reporting in.
[Hi senpai, he's back. Just so you know.]
FROM: salvatore.stefan@cdc.org
What's a guy got to do, to be able to play for your team?
[He's not one for dancing around the point, and it's something he'd been mulling over ever since Seth told him Dagger was running around recruiting others. Back during the avalanche. On the heels of another botched mission for Green, he's fairly certain taking on a different colour scheme would serve him better]
What's a guy got to do, to be able to play for your team?
[He's not one for dancing around the point, and it's something he'd been mulling over ever since Seth told him Dagger was running around recruiting others. Back during the avalanche. On the heels of another botched mission for Green, he's fairly certain taking on a different colour scheme would serve him better]
Edited (i decided this timeline worked better, sorry!) 2014-08-24 00:18 (UTC)
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Depends. Qualifications? If you have lingering Green loyalties then get out and don't waste my time.
Depends. Qualifications? If you have lingering Green loyalties then get out and don't waste my time.
[ It's my bae! Er. ]
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Starting to think you like Blue more than you like me. Welcome back.
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Starting to think you like Blue more than you like me. Welcome back.
Edited 2014-08-25 00:01 (UTC)
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Aw, you're sweet. Do anything nice while you're out?
Aw, you're sweet. Do anything nice while you're out?
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